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Wednesday 01/19/2000 7:31:53pm |
| Name: |
GAYLE L. TOSH |
| E-Mail: |
gtosh@bellsouth.net |
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Viewing another Guestbook |
| Location: |
Nashville, Tennessee |
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I wanted to thank-you for the beautiful
memorial you created for my son, Stephen M. Tosh and to let you know that I wanted to
create some others, so I
followed your page and was interested in your angels. Your story really touches my heart,
because besides Steve,
I also lost a baby to SIDS when she was 7 days old. When you experience something like
that you feel like you can never do it again and you hope and pray you won't have to.
And I thought there was no pain as great as having to select that small pink coffin and
watch that small body be buried when every fiber of my body was screaming to pick her up
and warm her little body and bring life once again to it.
But then the morning came when they came to tell me about Steve. We had spent years apart
because he had lived with my parents, so we had only been back together for a few years.
I won't tell you he was a saint, because he wasn't. And that boy-man could make me angrier
then any human being on earth has ever been able to. We were so much alike that I often
knew what he was thinking. He never got into big trouble, but he kept me hopping in high
school. Then he married a little red-haired girl and immediately gave me a grand=daughter.
Then 2 yrs. later he
gave me another. He never really got to know her and then he was gone. After burying both
my parents within the last four years, I had to oversee his arrangements. I didn't know if
I could go on
but somewhere I found the strength to hold up for his wife and the babies.
No, the grief never goes away. You do feel it forever, but after a while, it hurts less
and you begin to remember the good times that you had together and the reasons that are so
dear to you. And if you have your faith you lean on that very strongly. If I didn't
believe he was in a better place, I couldn't go on. But Steve was always a fan of science
fiction, and I picture Heaven as a real paradise for hem and my little girl, and my
parents, and my Husband who passed away a year later.
So I am not writing this to re-open your grief but to let you know that others do
understand sometimes and to tell you that there is light at the end of the tunnel
Sincerely,
gtosh@bellsouth.net
or durardg@aol.com |
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