I love you so very much. The pain in my heart is so unbearable sometimes from missing you. Just last week was four years since you went to be with God. IF I had only known, I would have done so many things different. But  children are suppose to outlive their parents. Parents are not suppose to bury their babies. The pain of losing you, was so devastating. The only comfort is knowing you are with God in heaven.

I am so sorry that I did not get up to see you after you were moved.  I have to live with that fact every hour of the day.  The whole family has changed due to your passing. But grief will do that. But I do have my memories, your crazy little laugh, your funny little smile and how you always loved so unconditional. I love and miss you so very much. I wish I could have had one last hug and could have told you one last time, just how much I love you. Your brother and I will never be the same. A part of us has died on the inside and nothing will ever grow in that spot again. Our lives have been changed forever.

With you now is PAWPAW and Mother Shinn.  I know that you were waiting for them and showed them the ropes. They both, always worried about what really happened. I know that by now their questions have been answered. I am looking for the day that I will see you and find out just what happened on that horrible day.  And for the day that I can hold you one more time, close to my heart and tell you how much I love you. I see you in my dreams, sometimes. But I can never get close enough to touch you, and I wake up crying. I miss your touch and your smile.